Ho hum.

Dear Laura,

A warm welcome to the MA Women, Gender and Literature course, which is now getting close!

You will find a Module Choice form in the attachment. Please return this form to me at the address below (or by email attachment) by Friday 7 September. This means we will be able to plan the MA class list in readiness for your formal university enrolment in the week of 24 September.

I can't find any videos of them performing this at V, whch was awesome, of course. Easily the best track on the album bar none. It makes me shiver, especially when it hits 1.36 exactly on the timer below - ouch, that's good. I love all the weird shapes he makes with his arms, it was fun to watch 

(Plus I really fancy him...)

We were a lot further back than this, but still had great view, and of course the screens are massive! Lots of cold, stinging rain throughout (which you can see!) but still definitely one of my highlights from the whole weekend. Such a shame they were given quite a short slot (before bloody Paolo Nutini! Eugh!). I may find more videos...

IIIIII'M LIVING IN MY FLAAAAAAAT
LIVING IN MY FLAAAAAAAT
LIVING IN MY FLAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!

NAAAAAA NA NA NA NA NAAAAAA
NA NA NA NA NAAAAAA
NA NA NA NA NAAAAAA!

How do you break a silence? It feels like a month, but it's only been two weeks.

On another note, digging out old CDs (that I still fondly call my mix tapes) and bunging them on the very empty 30GB Zen (it's such a chore).

So...yeah. Missed this one a bit.

I have ONE WEEK to decide whether or not to do this MA (Women, Gender and Literature) or not, and get my module choices back to the program leader.

It may not seem a big deal to some, but it is to me.

Financially it means parting with £3270 over the next two years - it would take two years as it will be part time - and that's just the course fee, before the inevitable books (curse those things). I don't really know if I can afford to part with that kind of money when I don't actually have any to start with. I won't touch loans or credit cards. My rent will cost more this year. I have to do it part time as I can't afford to cut my hours at work. Part time means I'd only do 3 modules a year meaning that I can at least concentrate on them and work as much as I can.

It would mean sticking around in Hull for another 2 years at least. I had pretty much decided on just the one more year. I'm not sure if I want to, but then again, I'm not sure if I'd mind either.

I'm not sure if "because" is a good enough reason, either. It wouldn't knock me back any further than I am now, but I seriously doubt it would take me any further. It's academic, not career-orientated or vocational. It would purely because I like the subject.

I think it would increase my confidence a lot. Many of the assessments contain compulsary presentations on both the subject matter and what you are researching, what methods you use etc. Presentating doesn't come easily to me. I don't like talking in front of people - I don't even like calling people I don't know, it can take an hour to psych myself up to call a taxi. I fainted at sixth form having to read out an essay I'd written. The very few done at uni - which were more reading off a piece of paper in a seminar - made me nauseous and anxious in the very least - on one occasion I couldn't leave the house and sat scratching my legs instead, then I packed a bag and went home for the weekend (there was other stuff going on too, but that was just the proverbial straw). I figure that this time there would be far fewer people there listening and that seems easier. It might just make me get over it.

And I still wouldn't know What I Want To Do With Myself, even after I do it.

It's giving me headaches now.

Direction, someone?

I AM GIDDY!

CLINK!

And enjoying my gay/queer/happy/odd talk with Meno.

Up the gays.

And the north, for that matter.

Just because.

University Challenge! Soooo posh! Ew!

I don't want to get that bus in the morning why didn't anyone MAKE ME PACK?

And good gracious I feel a life questionning rant coming along about a variety of topics so I'm going to nip that in the bud right now.

SAVAGE MAN-KILLING MONKEYS IN CAVES!

Oooh a taser laser fun gun.

I'm writing this in my new flat! I was very organised, got up early, packed up dad's car, and here I am, watching Congo and sipping wine!

I lie.

I really could not face packing at all, over the entire weekend. Packing is evil. Really truly detestable. Furthermore, it's frickin bank hoidlay monday - I was bloody well staying in bed as long as possible with a large bowl of coco pops and The Land Of Mist. It wouldn't have been fair to make dad get out of his comfy chair in the sun on his first day off for ages. It wouldn't have been fair. On anyone.

We did, however, venture to argos to get mum new pans so that I can nick her old ones. And cutlery. And a chopping board. Baking trays. Random tupperware. Basically everything I left in the old flat because I couldn't be arsed to pack. I have some lurid blue tumblers now though, so the day was not wasted.

I have some lovely wine at the moment. It's lush. It's something I chose, naturally. Parentals consider Blossom Hill to be exotic. I've realised I only like French wine too. Yum. Slosh. Pretty label. Half price too *clink*

A delightfully relaxing day all round. Some Galaxy would perfect this evening.

Ten minutes of Congo is enough to tell me it's crap.
*flick*
*flicks back*
Emmerdale and Corrie. Ew.

I did it agaaaain! Only this time mummy was watching me the whole time. I've been pegged and bulldog clipped into my cage now. She seems to think this will stop me...we'll see.

Screw the end of Big Brother.

X-ellent.

I don't know who I want more!

*drool*

EDIT: And how could I forget...!?

Can anyone offer explanation as to why there is another series of C4's The IT Crowd starting on my TV?

In what sense is this recommisionable comedy?

HAHAHA they're making jokes about gay AND Irish people IN ONE LINE! Incredible. Genius.

How infuriating that the TV remote is the other side of the room.

Edit: AND the wheelchair bound! Brilliance!

Big Bruvva final week, innit.

Ziggy, Samanda, Jonty, Liam, Brian, Carole.

Who's it going to be?

TWINS TO WIN!

Non Joy

1. The chocolate brownie cake someone brought in to say thanks (a card would do) - it is chocka with 3 varieties of nuts, and one variety alone is enough to make me wibble (I have eaten the chocolate sauce though).
2. 200-300 Chinese homeless summer school students want somewhere to live, and pronto. Gah.
3. Ginsters Spicy Chicken Deep Fill Slices. Sound good. Actually contain lots of hard potato, and very little else.
4. Any official university literature done in Comic Sans, because then I have to change it all, because Comic Sans looks juvenile and shit. Ditto Clip Art. Clearly our other campus hasn't realised this.
5. Our other campus.
6. Not having the right keys to the flat I want to move into on Monday, and the landlord being on holiday, and the office admin assistant not even knowing there were security locks on the door. Apparently someone will come and let me in anyway. She was very confident and cheerful about this. I wonder if the handyman will be as cheerful coming out on Bank Holiday Monday. Ho hum, eh?
7. Having about 50 emails to reply to everyday about the same things. Really, prospective students, please stop considering yourself so important. Get your tuition fee loan, turn up on the 24th September, pay, and consider your role fulfilled. Nobody cares about anything else.
8. And really, prospective students, if you're already ringing up to enquire about hardship funding, maybe you should be reconsidering that Theology degree altogether.
9. The doorbell. Which is ringing.
10. The phone. Which is ringing.

Joy

1. Puppies
2. Cookies brought in by colleague from Subway to replace the cake Non Joy.
3. Feeling emotionally free for the first time in a long time.
4. Super Hans, who is still getting out on a regular basis. He has now figured out how to get out of the wire door, that humans have to squeeze to open. He woke mum and dad up by getting into a carrier bag in their bedroom and rustling a lot, but escaping from the bag and watching them while they looked for him. I love him. He is full of Joy. Shame he hates me.
5. Applying to be a non-resident student house tutor. This equates to an honorarium of £1066 per annum, in return for giving 40 students my mobile number in case of emergencies, where I would then ring Security, NHS Direct or 999. I better get it.
6. Meno, she makes me smile.
7. Scrabulous.
8. Butter mints.
9. Planning new tank set ups for Dyson and his yet to be purchased girlfriend.
10. Never having to catch that bus to and from work again. After tonight, anyway.

I know it's the end of the week for these, but this is also making me cross.

Clearly, mate, you get paid too much if you can afford to send it to other people. She could get another job that paid more, but who the hell would leave a job where someone sends you money!

Rarr.

I know it's been this way for years, but why do they still advertise soft cheese using dead women?

That has been bugging me all night.

Don't you wanna come with me?!

Don't you wanna feeeel myyyy boooones?!

On yoooour bones!

It's only natural!

*boogie bounce dance sing whoop*

(Please stop raining)

*whoooop*

I HATE PACKING!

I HATE IT!

There truly is nothing I detest more. Apart from unpacking. That makes me cry.

I am trying so, so hard, but I cannot get the toilet roll in. Or the food. Or this 1 litre bottle of lucozade. Or the bottled water. Or my wellies. So, y'know, nothing I NEED(!)

I also need to clean out Super Hans and get a shower. And find the tickets.

Fuck it, I'm eating the Jaffa cakes.

It's V tomorrow. I am in no way organised. Apart from the food. OH, and I bought a waterproof jacket from Millets which was TWENTY SIX QUID! Bloody hell! Felt it necessary as it is forecast rain. Joy.

I stole this from Chyna so that I could draw tents

...lovely new pink flower you have there

2 x bottles of Toni and Guy dry shampoo
30 x tablets of Norethisterone
20 x bin liners - heavy duty mofos, for purposes of sitting on, protecting toilet roll, wearing in the event of inclement weather, and, if required, using as a toilet.

EDIT: 1 x bag of chocolate raisins. Yum.

Woo. Festivities this weekend. From past experience I know only to take the bare essentials.

Thus, the supermarket trip:

6 5 x Galaxy Caramel cake bars
6 x packets of mini Jaffa cakes
1 x large bag of Doritos
4 x chocolate Elevenses bars
4 x lemon Alpen bars
6 x Rocky bars
1 x bag of butter mints
1 x bag of american hard gums
6 x small bottles of water
1 x large bottle of orange Lucozade
2 x small bottles of diet coke
4 x cheap toilet roll
1 x cheap bottle of vodka
1 x cheap crate of Fosters (it was on offer, ok?)
6 x packets of chewing gum
80 x sheets of baby wipes

And the only thing I've forgotten was the only thing on my list. Bloody bin liners.

This serves me right for getting so worked up about speaking to Ex Ex the other day.

Ex Ex has changed her relationship status to: In a Relationship.
Ex Ex has changed her profile picture: *insert random photo of her and the girl she left behind but appears to be back with here*

I hate Facebook sometimes.

It happens everytime she's on my mind. There's just always something to remind me.

Of course, outwardly I won't show a thing. There's no point - it's just another thing I've had to get used over the past few years, where she's concerned.

It's purely because I miss her being around. She's fun *shrug*

I'm going to eat some galaxy.

Your lack of interest in boobs is rather concerning. But with more practice you will get to second base, and then maybe you shall learn the skill of boobs size.

Nanna and grandad come round to deliver a present:

"Hope you like it love"
"Oh...a Frothie drinks maker! Thank you, mother!"
"It was that or a mattress cover"
"...Ok!"

I suppose after 28 years you would be running out of ideas. Can't wait til Christmas!

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
I should've washed my hair last night. Where's the dry shampoo?

2. Favourite planet?
I..umm..Mercury. Pretty cool.

3. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Dave, my sister.

4. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
In My Heart - Moby.

5. Do you “label” yourself?
Not really. There are no labels for me. I am me. I wouldn't mind having one though.

6. What does your watch look like?
It's white gold. In fact, if you look at the post about Super Hans, you'll see it. You lucky folk.

7. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping, thank goodness.

8. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
'Need wine'.

9. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot?
Joy.

10. Last furry thing you touched?
Le Super Hans.

11. Favorite age you have been so far?
17

12. Your worst enemy?
Definitely myself. And one of the assistant hall wardens. Evil.

13. What is your current desktop picture?
Natalia Tena as Nymphadora Tonks from HPOOP. (*giggle*...poop)

14. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"Is he licking that fruit pastille?! Mother you're a bad influence on him, no wonder he keeps escaping in the middle of the night, he's high!"

15. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Money. Material, maybe, but it's cold and wet up there. Trains aren't as bad as folk say, in my opinion.

16. Are you in love with someone?
No. I love someone dearly, but I'm not in love.

17. The last song you listened to?
Travis - Driftwood. See previous post. (Mug!)

18. What time of day were you born?
1:36pm

19. What's your favorite food?
Chinese I think. Although, I'm developing a fondness for fajita seasoning on EVERYTHING.

20. Where did you live in 1984?
Pre May 1984 - the mother ship. Post that - Grimsby.

21. Are you jealous of anyone?
I'm assuming they mean to use the word 'envy' there? I envy some trivial matters. I'm am a little jealous of someone, but I cannot have them, so meh.

22. Is anyone jealous of you?
Envious? Certainly not, I imagine. Jealous? No.

23. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At sixth form. I didn't really grasp what was happening and moaned that the boys were hogging the tv when I wanted MTV on. Feel bad about that.

24. Do you consider yourself kind?
Yes, mostly, but I try to hide it best I can.

25. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Back of my ankle, going up my leg a coupele of inches, in a vine/flowery like pattern, in black.

26. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Polish, so I could read the signs in the windows of all the new shops opening down Spring Bank.
Seriously, I would love to be able to speak ANY other language. I think I might learn Spanish in September at uni evening classes with a colleague. We reckon we can figure out how to pay with it from the budget of someone that annoys us.

27. Would you move for the person you loved?
Two years ago I would've said 'yes' straight away. From experience I know that's easier said than done. It depends on how much you love them, and they love you.

28. What's your life motto?
Typical.

29. What's your favorite town/city?
Glasgow, although I didn't want to move there. I like Leeds too. And Durham.

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
Non work related I take it? Umm I really can't remember!

31. Can you change the oil on a car?
I have no need to. There are men for that.

32. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
See previous entry! She's been white water rafting in the Himalayas! The msot recent one has bought a house with the girl I was dumped for. Bored of wibbling about that now.

33. Do you collect anything?
I don't think so...elastic bands for my elastic band ball of glory...I certainly keep everything.

34. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy?
I try to avoid doing this at all times.

35. Have you been burned by love?
Yes. Yes.

Ex Ex says:
hello there!
Me says:
hello there dearest!
how are you?
confirm it is you and not someone scary
ok, errrr, ive just got back from rafting, i took a gap year and came to nepal years ago
marvellous, that'll do for me. how was rafting?
twas lots of fun, fell in/got pushed in loads
goood
you would have hated it
i dont doubt that for a second
ooooo, was thinking about you loads today
were u dear?
was sat on a bus for about 6 hours and borrowed a friends ipod
listened to the old travis album
the one with driftwood on it
the one with driftwood on it?
yeah!!
i totally love that album
its ours
aww
i do still love that album. i'll listen to it on the bus home
yeah do
the whole album is ace
i knooow
daww, you've made me smile
so your plans now are?
well my group is still here until sunday, then they leave and im all alone
oh noo
(cant wait)
ah
will be nice to have some time to myself
im sure it will
time to write my blog etc
hahaha, you mean the one i set up for you the day before you left, over a month ago? we'll see
we will i have many pics
yay
you will see them in due course
naturally
we've had some nice weather, im sure you're ecstatic to know that. my plan for this weekend is to buy cutlery. altho next weekend is V, woo, and weekend after that i move back to hull, YAY
yay!
the next 3 weeks of my life in 4 sentences, depressing
awww
well i will be online quite a bit in the next few days, so hopefully we can keep chatting
it always says you're on, but i never dare speak, incase it's some weirdo again like last time you were there
i will start convos
aw i miss u now ive spoken to u
i was proper missing you today, listening to that cd
oh love
im gonna buy it out here
i wish u had a base, id send u stuff. reckon u could manage a postcard between now and december?
i will def post you a letter very soon my dear
i do hope so, you know i love post
it has just been announced that emma bunton has had a baby boy called beau
oh and foot and mouth is back, joy
don't think i don't give you the breaking news
thank you! good to know!
im going to get some food now
oh, btw, im veggie
tut. don't be so ridiculous.
i think im going to go home now too
ok
speak soon xxxxxxxx
listen to the album
i will
ta ta xxx

And do you know what? I don't care if I still love you. I love how you make me feel, and there can't be anything wrong with that.

No, not a 'what a good idea' ding. DING DING! Desk bell ding. DING!

I am all alone at work. There is not a soul here.

I am ringing the desk bell but no one is bringing me the biscuit tin =(

Now I have to go have lunch by myself.

This afternoon I need to do all the things I was supposed to do in the past two weeks.

I might just hit eBay.

Or Ann Summers.

And leave much earlier.

Well done me.

You Know a Lot About Blogging

You got 5/8 correct! Your not a total blogging geek yet... give it time.

Here I am:

My mummy has just shouted at me for being naughty. I keep escaping in the middle of the night.

Not content with getting into the bath, last