With everything at the moment. Me. Where I am, where I'm not. What I am, what I'm not. I keep doing what I think will make me happy or answer whatever problem I have at the time, but it never does. I don't know what I want but I know it isn't what I have at the moment. Nobody else has the answers either, I know that. I don't want someone to tell me what to do, I want to know myself. Yeah yeah, I know, nobody knows what they want to do, yadda yadda. Bullshit. Plenty of people do.

I'm bored, miserable, lonely. Bored of this place and the people in it (I don't mean blog). It does nothing to make me feel better and there isn't really anyone here who gives a shit about me anymore. Friends are scattered around the country these days and the ones I have the most in common with live the furthest away. I feel like others, near and far, use me as an example to feel better about themselves and their lives.

I deserve more than this.